I'm starting to get really tired these days.
I have my diploma in video for 4 years and a half now.
Since then, I have been unable to land a propre stable job. I have 3+ years of professionnal experience, between unpaid internship (sigh), small jobs etc...
Last summer, I succeeded to have permanent position. But more than that, It was kinda my dream job that I landed too ! I was supposed to be a technical video teacher. It was a 80% contract (so, giving me enough time to work on my personnal projects, play video games, etc...), well paid (finally financially independant, enough money to invest it in my projects, have fun etc...), great job conditions (so i knew I wouldn't wake up in the morning hating my life, as it happened on previous jobs...), etc... I love being a teacher (i've already taught video alot, when I was young I wanted to be a teacher). Simply put : it was the job i've always dreamed of (except directing movies ofc).
Suddenly, my contract was cancelled just before I started, because of Covid 19, obviously. That hitted me pretty hard, tbh. But I tought not to let me be beaten by life, and in the future this opportunity might come again, who knows.
At the beginning of the year, in january, I started an internship that was supposed to be 3 months long and then transform into a permanent position. It was in digital marketing. It wasn't my dream job, but I tought, a job's a job, you know ? The internship was hard, I didn't like the job that much, but it was better than being unemployed. My boss really wanted to develop video marketing for his company. He was pretty confident, because with Covid, most companies changed their marketing strategies into digital, so his company was becoming really successful.
But the internship was stopped after a month, because, Covid, again... Basically, most companies he was working with started to stop spending much money into digital marketing, or completley stopped their digital strategies, or even went bankrupt. So basically my boss told me that he would be unable to pay me my permanent position, and if things kept going like that, he might have to also change his strategies, so after a month, we stopped our collaboration there.
Now, I am postulating for positions where I am already over-qualified (even tho I didn't have a proper permanent position, I have way more experiences and knowledge than what was asked), but I still can't land any job. Because people who are even more qualified than me are postulating for the same jobs.
To give you an example : I postulated for a "beginner's job" (I don't know the proper term in english, sorry. But basically it is supposed to be a job for people who just finished school and only have a few months of professionnal experiences). But I didn't land it. Instead, a friend of mine landed it. But this friend of mine has a TREMENDOUS profile : he's been working for 13 years now in this field. He's work a big companies, he was working independant for 5 years now. 2 years ago he directed a feature-lenght movie at Hollywood produced by LionsGate. They were looking for distributors. Sadly for him, last year he was supposed to direct a major movie for Universal Studios (a 15 millions $ buget movie) and was about to shot a pilot for a TV Show that Universal Studios ordered. So he was about to have his life sorted out. His movie he directed 2 years ago was about to get distributed. They landed a contract for europe distribution and were in talk to distribute it in the US as well and make an international release. Of course, Covid came, so the distribution contract was no more, and Universal cancelled both the movie and the TV Show. The dude, after some time, couldn't find enough job as a free-lance worker. So he started looking for a job, any job, to find some stability. So of course, comparing our two profiles, his one was the way to go, it's obvious.
So of course, while I'm sad for my friend as well, because some big projects he always dreamed of suddenly disappeared because of Covid, and that he had to settle for a Job that is almost insulting to his level of knowledges and capacities in video making, it makes people like me even further from landing a job too. And this is just an example. I have other friends that took job where they were way overqualified, because they had no choice. I have been rejected from job where even I was even overqualified, but when I asked what was the cause of me not being chosen, it was always "you have a great profile, but we found people with more qualifications and more experiences", even for "low-level" jobs.
And now, I feel "stuck" you know ? I feel lost. I feel like I'm never going to get a job. That I am forever going to stay at my mum's house... And I must admit that at this point, it's starting to get to me pretty hardly...
